Sunday, August 27, 2006
I had a long talk with a great person today, Sarah, who encouraged me by her quiet way to apply for Social Security. There is no reason why I shouldn't. This EDS IS a nasty bugger. Ellen Quinn's words. And it is. My ankles, knees, and elbows hurt tonight.
My ROM is horrid, and PT is not good. Its a slow go. I e-mailed Dr B tonight, respectfully asking that he complete the ASAP form for doctors for patients that need to go for SSDI/SSI.
Please hold a good thought for me that things will go well. I hired Allsup for representation.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
I am diligent about getting this done. I feel a bit optimistic..yesterday anyway. Today NOT so much. Sad. I want to be back in WA state. That is my home. My only place. I miss my kids so much.
Anyways..I am hoping I can be "better" so I can apply for an airline job by January. With Dennis getting married in November, Check back in September for NY(TCI), and Christmas I believe its in my best interest to not job search until January. I had to cash in a bit of my IRA to subsidize my living. Sheesh. If I only knew then, what I know now.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
I don't know how I got into with the TSA at Seattle airport, but they decided to "check" my carryon for gunpowder. They got my contact eye solution, and took that even though it was under 4oz.
I left my laptop at security, and I had to fly back yesterday to get it, and back last night. One flight was cancelled out of PDX, so I almost didn't get on the flight..whew.
But it was good to sleep in my own bed.
PT tomorrow. I hope that I will continue to sleep as good as last night. I tried the rezorem.
Friday, August 18, 2006
I go back to NY to TCI on September 27, 130PM. I hope and pray that my fusion has taken.
Kim and Rob visited overnight here, we swam and had a great barbecue. I love having company. Kim and I then walked like over 2 miles last night, over an hour walking. It felt good, cept the dang shoes! I got a blister and walked the last mile barefoot. Took a good long soak in the tub.
More company this weekend then to Seattle for Brit's Bridal shower.
Monday, August 14, 2006
We went over basics, and did some exercises. She then gave a very gentle massage and told me things I should NOT do. Isometric, bringing my chin back towards my spine, BIG NO NO! So I only did that a couple of times..and won't now again. And Aetna is paying for all my physical therapy, at least until the end of September when I change insurance companies. I would like to go back to work then, but I don't know if I will be ready.
Aetna still hasn't contacted me since the letter sent the 20JUL. Hmmm..I hope that means that a real doctor is going to review it versus a systems analyst denying my claim!!!
Dennis is going to be done around the 20AUG, so I might fly up to Kodiak to see him and see Suzi.
In Seattle I saw all the BVU girls we had a great time, sitting around at Katherine's new house overlooking a serene lake. I should of taken some picture but I didn't.
Been kind of depressed the last couple of days, weepy and all. Not like me at all..sometimes this situation is so despairing, whether I should go back to work, cash out the 401K for more recovery time...decisions, decsions.
Dennis called but I missed his call. blah!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Dennis is on his way to Kodiak. I miss being up there. I love the people and miss them.
HA is pretty much gone, just the residual upper back pain that has continued to cause me lots o pain since the surgery. Well, before the surgery too.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
I left for Alaska on the 2JUL2006 and spent a couple of days in Anchorage then down to Valdez to go to Dennis' boat. I was there until the 12JULY, then over to Kodiak until the 21JULY.
Here are some pictures. Some are while I was on the boat, others are in Kodiak.
Please enjoy them!
I am on the left, Trixxie and Helen. We perfected the Lemon Drop while in Pasagshak..but ssssh don't tell anyone. The salmon boat is in Anderson Bay, and thats Columbia Glacier, we had fun there cause it was so quiet. Then there is Dennis running the boat.
I hope you enjoy the pictures..
The first is of my brain prior to surgery on April 28th. Dr Milhorat and Dr Bolognese did my decompression surgery. I was wheeled into the OR right on the dot. I was sooo scared to have surgery on my brain/neck. I introduced myself and tried to remember their names. I met around 8-10 people in the OR. Dr Carras was responsible for anesthesia. Dr Remy was in the OR, and I was introduced finally to Dr Milhorat. I was thrilled to meet him since he was the one that started TCI. The foresight on his part, and knowledge of chiari and the associated syndromes. Anyways, trying to get the IV line started well it was tough, Dr Carras had to try again. He managed on the second try, and soon enough I was asleep. Then I was brought back up, and there was like screws on the side of my head, and I felt like I looked like a deer caught in the headlights, searching around on how to get out of there. The doctors asked questions of how I felt with different levels of weight added to determine how much degree would be when they did the extraction fusion. When they released all the weight, I told them I felt like a toad.
Then ASLEEP again. When I came to, I was thrashing around in horrid pain, and I could hear the recovery room staff saying things like "we have given her something, something" and mercifully they put me back under again. All I could communicate was crying "I hurt, I hurt" over and over again.
When I came to again, I was in another room, called a PACU, and Dennis came in for a very short time to see me. It was so good to see him, but I was so drugged up I just remember seeing his smiling face and he looked sooo worried.
I spend the night in PACU and then the next day I was moved to NICU where I spent two days. I slept a lot. I kept getting tangled up in the wires/cords to the morphine pump, and getting woke up by the nurses for the heparin shots. Teeny tiny needles that had to be injected into my tummy. The back of my head was wrapped in that brown stretchy tape.
I think it was the second day I met Dr Kula, Denise and was asked different questions, and was told to move my neck. Well I had heard some horror stories about how if you don't move your neck, they move it for you. I didn't care how much it hurt, I was gonna move it NO MATTER WHAT..I didn't want someone else doing it for me.
On the second day, I did dangle my legs over the side, but it was quite the production to take a walk and by the time all the stuff was done, well I was done. Energy levels were down, and I would just roll back into bed(like a log just like I was told)
On the end of the second day I did some Hall Walking...didn't need a hall pass for that. Dennis escorted me, and it was short, but I did it. The third day, I didn't want him to help too much cause I wanted out of there, but as long as you are hooked up to the morphine pump you have to stay in the hospital. I was kinda scared to get out, I didn't want any of the complications that are mentioned after decompression surgery, extraction fusion.
So, after four days total in PACU/NICU I went to the regular ward, and spent two days there. Pretty noisy. I got spoiled in the NICU, own special nurse. Yikes how the other half lives. LOL. Nice people. Always calling me "honey" and "sweetie" but I didn't get the "good food" BAD BAD FOOD!!
So, I had surgery for Chiari, retroflexed odontoid, Eagles Syndrome, and fusion. Laminectomy c1, partial laminectomy c2, fusion c3/4.
Still in the recovery process right now
Thursday, August 03, 2006
I went to work, the other woman's car totaled. By the next day, I was crawling around on all fours. I couldn't stand upright. Dennis had left to go fishing in Alaska two days before and I had two little boys to care for. Matt was 5 and Dennis Daniel was 3 years old at the time. They ate lots of toast.
I sought out chiropractic, massage therapy. I tried to go back to work at Alaska Airlines at the Oakland airport as a customer service agent, but I couldn't even pull open the drawers. I left in tears and spent another month off work.
I sought orthopedic specialists, begged for relief from the pain, no such luck. I finally settled after transferring to Seattle in April of 1988. In California at the time you were allowed a year to settle.
Fast forward, I continued to work, with episodes of pain, usually three weeks of muscle relaxers, hydrocodone and I would be fine. I worked out, worked full time, Dennis Patrick worked in Alaska, and we lived, traveled and laughed. We have been to Australia, Mexico, England, Ireland..Alaska on the Kodiak and Determined to visit Dennis Patrick.
I transferred to Airfreight in 1996, and worked there until 2000. Just after 261 went down on January 31st 2000, I got word that my bid to Bellevue City ticket office came through and I transferred there. I think the emotional stress and sadness of 261 put me over the top, as I don't think I have ever been so sad before about an event. I rushed to airport the day it happened, and helped at air cargo. I woke up the next morning with hot tears in my eyes at the sadness of it all.
At any rate, I continued to work at the BVU office with some of now my closest girlfriends/co-workers. Tracee Stubrud, Suzi Smith, Kim Thayer, and Katherine Torrence. They helped me as much as they could but there wasn't anything that could be done about the pain issues I was suffering.
I sought out relief with Group Health, and never had a MRI...told I had "coat hangar syndrome" with a rheumutologist telling me its right here in this book. After 2003 I changed to Aetna, where I finally got MRI's of my neck and found that there were disc herniations, dessicated disc, lordosis of the c-spine.
I received treatments including epidurals, facet nerve injections, radio frequency lesioning, prolotherapy(got a collapsed lung with the 5 th treatment), massage therapy, rolfing, chiropractic. Sheesh....all these things and still pain.
In October 2003, I took six weeks off seeing if taking time off would help my pain levels, it did not. I returned to full time work at the Bellevue office and just tried my best, but came home in tears. I found support on line with Brain talk, and other chronic pain support boards.
In April of 2000, my step-mother Juanita passed away. I dearly loved her. I became responsible for my father's care due to Alzheimers. I had Power of Attorney for his finances, responsible for selecting his home amongst other things.
In May 2004, I was awarded a bid to Washington DCA to work for 60 days. I was unable to go until the beginning of June 2004. I worked with John Fujioka, Pam Curtis, Marcos Comotto, Connie Carlson....one other I cannot remember right now. We worked 6AM-930AM then we would catch the shuttle back to the hotel for the free breakfast at the Embassy Suites. At the urging of the hospice care I took the bid, even though my father was ill...he passed on June 24, nine days after I arrived in DCA. I returned to Seattle to take care of his arrangements. I returned and finished out my assignment in DCA.
I returned to work in Bellevue and warned the girls that Bellevue was on the chopping block, and that our jobs were in jeopardy. The closure was announced on September 9, 2004 with a closing date of December 31st 2004. We would remain on the payroll until January 5, 2005. We all took the VSI(Voluntary Severance Incentive) that was being offered to management as well.
I figured that if I lasted two more years at best, I would walk out the door with nothing. Now in hindsight, I would of taken a medical leave as eight months later I found out that I have chiari, Ehlers-Danlos, Thoracic Outlet syndrome, Eagles syndrome.
I requested a new MRI in July 2005 from my pain management doctor, and he ordered one specially through CDI in Mount Lake Terrace WA to find any "nuances" surgical or otherwise. The Chiari was apparent from that MRI to the doctor there.
My search began in earnest for answers. I requested and got a referral to Dr Ellenbogen at the UW, who ended up calling me and dismissing me by phone, him telling me to "run if anyone wants to operate on me" and "those meds aren't the ones I would prescribe to you". I continued my search on the internet. I found the Chiari Institute in Great Neck NY.
I filled out a questionaire, and received an appt date in November. Dennis and I went to NY and I had additional testing in NY, CINE MRI, CT brain scan, thoracic MRI, and went to meet with Dr Mora, and Dr Bolognese. The good/bad news was that I am a chiarian and all the above syndromes.
On April 28th 2006 I had surgery for decompression, extraction fusion with Dr Milhorat and Dr Bolognese. Dr Douglas Carras was there as anesthesiologist. There was about 10 people present besides myself. I was scared, but when Dr M introduced himself I was less scared. Dr B had called the night before at the Andrew Hotel and spoke to me about what was going to happen. He called at 1015PM and said that Dr M had decided due to my relatively high score on the Ehlers Danlos scale that I needed to have invasive traction. I was put under and brought back up with screws on either side of my head, and I was even more scared. The added weight under fluroscopy and then took it off, and I told them I felt like a toad with all the weight off.
I was put under again, and Dennis had to wait 7.5 hours for me to come out. Then he was told it would be too distressing to him to see me the way I was. Little did he know that I was thrashing about crying "I hurt, I hurt, my head hurts", and crying...hearing the doctors saying "we gave her this we need to give her this" and mercifully I was out again and when I came to, there was less pain and I saw Dennis.